May faith has been shaken the last few months. My faith in myself. I have been under so many investigations and uncertainness at work….I had no idea what was going on or what I was going to do. This week has been the week that I have gotten the greatest of news. I am so lucky and blessed…not just to have an amazing family but a lot of amazing opportunities come may way….LUCKY GIRL.
When you are stressed, you make poor eating choices. I know I have gotten off the wagon a little bit. But now the focus is back…cutting back on the sugars. Fat does not make you fat…its the carbs that make you fat. If you can understand that and change your diet accordingly you can lose weight. I have also fallen of the vitamin bandwagon and need to get back on it. I have to get my thyroid check to make sure that it is functioning properly and figure out why I am so tired all the time.
All these investigations have taken attention from working out. Stress does that to you and is one of the biggest causes of weight gain. So I am glad that is all behind me and I can now focus on working out again…bootamp session starts in two weeks and I have to take 3 trips before then for work. Let’s do it ladies…its going to be another awesome adventure.
I am ready for the unknown. Wherever it takes me…I am ready. I hope that moving forward will make me stronger. If I fail…that is ok…because I am not going lose faith in myself again. It is harder not to have faith in yourself than to fail. Faith gives you hope and no one can take hope way. After all…Asha means hope:).
Walking the Runway yesterday was scary but I am so proud that I did it. I was skeptical in doing it but it was another thing I conquered. It was something I did not want to do but was glad that I did. I am was able to conquer it and blast through it.
Sometimes I feel like nothing is constant but change. As I survived another round of layoffs, my job is changing. I am going to have more responsibilities in my job but I can’t complain because at least I have a job. Having a job is better than not having a job. I like paying bills and having insurance. So even though my job is changing and I have more things to do, I still need to find time to work out and do it well.
I am finally figuring out what I need to survive calorie wise. Now that I have figured out, I am feeling great working out. I have less days that I am tired and more days that I can do more. Which helps with working on school and working out.
I am thankful for everyone who came to see me conquer through. Punching the through the old me in front of those who support me is amazing. Thank you to the bootcamp ladies , friends that came to visit, and my personal photographer, Luis and Georgia. Special thanks to my sister for doing my hair. But I am most grateful to mom and brother who were sitting in the front row watching me and all of their hard work come to premonition. I am 10X stronger than before. Thank you all!!
So in a few days, I will be gracing the stage and walking down the runway in front of family and friends and I am excited and nervous. I got my outfit. I have an idea on my hair. They will do my makeup. Seeing my progress and how far I have come is a big deal. I know what I want and I am not afraid of getting it.
I have figured out this eating thing. I know what my body needs and what it does not need. Sometime fate intervenes. They opened a dunkin donuts near my house. All I want is one chocolate donut hole…for those of you know…a muchkin. I have gone three times and all three times…they have ran out. I was about to cry…but settled for a fiber bar instead. That is a healthier option but I was sad. There is plan for us and fate and a higher being is out there watching out for us.
So there are so many workout challenges this month. The squat challenge…the plank…challenge…bootcamps…May 30 day workout challenge. They are so many to chose from…so take advantage of it. Find a friend or foe and do one…what do you have to lose…nothing but a few pounds. These challenges are met to jumpstart any workout routine. If you can’t find anyone to do it with you….please let me know and I will do it with you.
My family comes into town on Sunday to support me. I can’t ask for a greater gift than that. My brother will be here on Wednesday. Some friends will come and go but family is forever. Family will be there through thick and thin. Remember you have your family and those you chose as family. And when you have no one else you have your family and your extended family to lean on…that is amazing. When you are doing great…everyone is around you….when you are struggling is when you find out who your friends are…those willing to stick close by and watch you pick yourself up and cheer you on…no matter what…are the ones I want with me for the rest of my life…not matter where they live and they know who they are…..