Spending time with family is what I needed after the last couple of weeks. I feel like I have been rambling aimlessly and not really doing anything important. Food was not that bad on this trip because I was able to share everything with my dad. He and I split every meal and it was awesome. I conquered my fear of heights by doing the great cliff climb, suspension bridge…I hate crazy rides and rode into the ocean in a cattermarren and let me tell you…it was a crazy ride. Life is turning out be a crazy ride and one that is taking me on some crazy twists.
I know what I want to do…eventually…it’s the steps getting there that are hard. I had to put together my strategic vision and mission statement together the other day. As part of my job, we have to have a plan on where we want to go career wise and the steps we want to take to get there. I want to conquer the world…which world…I don’t know yet.
I have to admit…I have not done a squat in two weeks. Tomorrow, my friends, is going to suck. Bootcamp is going to kick my butt. It is going to be hard. It is going to be hard for me to focus on my workouts when I have not technically worked out in a long time. While on vacation, we did a lot of walking. I walked over 3-4 miles a day and that was exercise…but not the kind of pain that I am going to feel tomorrow night. Another event that I have pull up my big girl panties and suck it up.
I am growing professionally. After almost four years in San Antonio, I am going to a PMP meeting. I have had my PMP certification for over 8 years now and I rarely attend meetings. Well this Wednesday, I am going to represent Boeing at the Alamo chapter PMP dinner. I just got my certification renewed last year…completed all 63 of the required PDUs…albeit some of the last minute…to renew. And for the first time, I am going to work dinner like this solo. I am flying S-O-L-O and that is ok. I will survive something by myself J…just have to pull up my big girl panties and suck it up again.
There are a lot of unknowns left in life. Something that was working for me yesterday, is no longer working for me today. Maybe I need to re-evaluate where I need to be in life and be ok with the status quo….who knows, maybe one day I will be where I am supposed to be…wherever and whenever that will be is up to fate right now…
Sometimes I don’t know if I am coming or going. In fact I am writing this on the airplane. I just got my travel schedule for September and I will be gone for most of it. I don’t know what is going to happen with my job. I don’t know whether I need to meet with realtor and lawyer or just chill. I don’t like my life being in limbo this much. I need structure.
I think that when I get back to San Antonio, that I am going to join Gold’s gym. I am going to get rid of my LA fitness membership for a little while. It is too far away. And I can join the other bootcampers and still have that support that I need. I need to lift weights and not just rely on zumba,
So even when I travel, I know that I have to be responsible for my food and make sure that I get enough of everything I need. I can only do that. It time to put some of the accountability on me and not others. Even though having support is key, I think that it time that I take control and do things my way. I make my own rules. Those rules that I live by are what makes me successful and who I am…..
Bootcamp may be on hold and we might have to wait a little while. That is ok. What is meant to happene will always happen. We are all trying to find ourselves. By losing weight and losing something that have we had for a long time…we find ourselves. Once you have found yourself you can do anything and be at peace with yourself.
A minor setback is not the end of the world. We are going to stick together and conquer our demons and fears. We are going to be ok…we have our online and physical support. We have to be there for one another because sum is stronger than the individual parts. We are on a fitness revolution…to change ourselves, each other, and others!
Bootcamp is cancelled for a little while. Let’s show the world what we are made and keep striving to success. We have all come so far, we can do it….we can work together and get through this little hurdle. Hopefully Mario will be able to figure it out and we will be together once again. Hang in there 4Vida family….we got this
I am doing workouts on my own. I don’t like but I have to motivate myself. I can’t always rely on others to motivate me. BUT…knowing that they are not physically there but there in spirit is very important. Know that I can call on them when I need them is also important. Having that support group is so crucial in any major endeavor….
Why is support so important? Without it you won’t succeed. Yes you can do anything you put your mind to but sometimes you need that accountability. I know that I do. It is my fitbook crew that has been keeping me on track. Healthy eating is so important on so many levels. Without eating healthy, one could be skinny but still unhealthy. Eating natural all process foods is what it is all about. Eating clean. Cocnut oil is amazing. It has helped regulate my thyroid and made me crave sweets less. I have not eaten frozen yogurt since I started using coconut oil. Thank you fitbook crew…love you guys!!!
Those who take care of me are the ones that I am loyal to and believe in. There are some major changes happening everywhere and with everything. Make sure the ones who have around are the ones who support you and make sure that you understand who they really are. Family, love, hope, determination, will, courage, and strength are the only things we have in this crazy thing we call life….
Last week I wLas asked to be an ‘expert’ on my surgery at my surgeon’s roundtable discussion. I did not feel like an expert walking…but after people started asking me questions…I realized how much I know about things and how much I have had to learn about myself throughout this process. It is my journey and my process and everyone has a unique process. I realized how much I had to get in touch with my body and figure out my needs and requirements to survive.
School is getting harder, work is getting harder…life is getting harder. I am struggling to make working out a priority. Some days it happens or it does not. That’s life. I can definitely tell that bootcamp is getting really hard and part of that is…is me not doing to other workouts to prepare for them. The problem is that I want to do EVERYTHING and there is only 24 hours in a day. I need to spend some time re-evaluating what I am doing and how I am managing my time.
As my life gets busier and my uncertainty more certain…I have learned to adapt my cooking style to adapt as well to that lifestyle. It is not about eat large amounts of food…it is about making small amount of food you eat…the tastiest and most nutrient enriched as possible. The other day I made a simple bison roast in the crock pot. It was amazing…it was the perfect four ounces that I needed and was craving. Easy high protein dishes have become my go to meals in the last couple weeks and I am finally getting back on track with everything.
Have you ever watched a documentary or read an article and said “I wish I was that cool”. I am struggling with what I am doing with my life. I see all these women in the world who are making changes that will affect generations to come and I wonder sometimes what I am doing to make this world better. I am trying to figure out what I was put on this earth to do. We are all meant for greatness…some of us are able to outshine and be amazing…some of us are still trying to find where will shine.